Conscious Catholicism

I haven’t journalled in awhile. I’m not sure why, I just didn’t have anything that needed to be I guess. A couple things, Xmas was wonderful my Aunt/Uncle/kids spent Xmas Eve with M and I. I really enjoyed having everyone together. My birthday (New Years) went well too. It was quite and less alcohol fueled this year than in past years. Some good news that I got before Xmas is that my position with the City isn’t in jepardoy. I’ve been budgetted in for this year and according to the finance manager will be for next year (2006) as well. This makes me incredibly happy. I love working were I do and so knowing I have a place there makes all the difference in the world.

Things with my Dad are a bit wierd again. He (or Nana) didn’t call to say Happy New Years. Ever since his last visit its been awkward. I think he’s dismissing me from his life like he does with everyone he has conflict with. He did it with Terry (my half-sister) and with his own brother. There is obviously some deeper issues for him that he needs to address. I still care for him and I’m glad that I got to know him a bit better. It filled in some pieces that were missing. I’m glad I got to know Nana also and will miss not chatting with her. I’m not pursuing the relationship though. I’ve done that before it in never works out well for me. If he doesn’t want to be a part of my life or have me be a part of his life then thats his choice. All the best to him.

I have today off, time to study, use my gift certificate to the Gap (thanks mom) and pay bills. So off I go.


Born in New York, Educated in the Berkshires, Became an adult in CA and found my Soul in Seattle. I'm a bearish middle aged, happy man who lives w my husbear in the OC.