Conscious Catholicism

I only had one class this morning, it was math.Now I’m home and couldn’t be happier. it’s mid 40’s and overcast, perfect stay indoors weather. I don’t have clases tomorrow, so I can finally catch up on my Networking class. I’ve been really bad about reading and doing the exercises in the chapters. I’ve been so focussed on the more social aspects of my life. I went to Cuff briefly last night with Mike, it was fun. After awhile the area of the bar were we were turned central, for the bear room. It was kinda fun seeing who posts pictures so old that they look nothing like there online selves. I got a call from Joey about 630ish so I went up to his house to spend some time. It was brief, because we were both hungry but damn it Janet, couldn’t remember the name of the chinese place we wanted food from. We headed down did some pickup and watch Carnivale.

This entry has been sitting here incomplete for most of the day. I’m back from my errands I’ll be hanging out tonight, not planning on doing much except relaxing. I went on a follow up visit with my doctor, my liver, gall bladder, kidneys are all healthy. My HIV status is still negative and my heart seems much happier. She gave me a refill for my tummy pills.

I’m hoping that Joey calls later. It’s at that stage were we aren’t “tricks” anymore and exploring a friendship of one sort or another. I tend to get really insecure at this point. It’s my own shit, I know, it seems I start seeing all of my own imperfections, and few of my better traits. I’m making a conscious effort to focus on the moment without expectations, just to enjoy whatever happens.


Born in New York, Educated in the Berkshires, Became an adult in CA and found my Soul in Seattle. I'm a bearish middle aged, happy man who lives w my husbear in the OC.