Conscious Catholicism

Things are finally settling into a patern here. I haven’t really slept very well since I moved here. Last night was the first night that I slept all the way through the night. Everything except for the fish tank and the computer scanner are setup now. I’ll be setting up the fishtank later on this morning and looking for the cable for the scanner. I’ve put in applications all over town for work and called all of my contacts. I have to get some paperwork filled in order to go back to school in the Fall, I should take care of that today. I”m trying not to worry about spending so much. Moving is expensive, very expensive. There has been a noticable shift in interactions with Mike. I’m catching myself not saying or asking things as much. This is a conscious effort on my part. It is a good thing. He is his own person, we shouldn’t interact as if we were still a couple. He doesn’t usually ask me for anything it was never his role or style. I was always the caregiver, director, mom. It’s in large part why our relationship as lovers became a friendship instead. He preferred to play the role that needed someone to care for him, look after him and direct his behaviour. He would of course disagree with this, however true it is. Anyway, that’s all over with. We are now just friends and roomates. There is still a bit of emotional sorting gonig on, some friends don’t understand why we both chose to live together after the relationship, they probably never will. It’s been a process of relearning to relate, which if the friendship is there is always worth it.

Another cup of coffee and I’m going to get a start on my chores for the day.


Born in New York, Educated in the Berkshires, Became an adult in CA and found my Soul in Seattle. I'm a bearish middle aged, happy man who lives w my husbear in the OC.